It took me a long time to admit it, but I’ve been in a creative rut. Actually, let me rephrase — it took me a long time to even realize it. I think when your work revolves around being creative, sometimes you push through creative blocks because you have to and not because you have found inspiration. That’s what I’ve been doing for a while now. Just pushing through. I’ve been making things and taking photos and writing, but it hasn’t been backed up by the excitement I usually feel. And I think I know why.
I hate to play the mom card, but I swear — having two toddlers is truly exhausting in every way. Mentally, physically, emotionally, creatively. For the past couple of years I get to the end of each day and it’s all I can do to wash my face and brush my teeth before I collapse onto the couch (or into bed at 9 pm). They take every bit of your presence and consciousness, and I’m realizing that the energy I’ve been using to “mom” has been maybe draining my creativity a little bit. But recently, just in the past few weeks, I’m noticing a shift in the other direction.
At night, I’m physically exhausted but I can actually stay up until 10 or even 11. I have a bounce in my step. And suddenly, I feel creatively drawn to making things again. Projects pop into my head that I’m excited about, and it’s a very new feeling. Another new thing: I’m finding myself wanting to be creative in ways that take a little more investment — watercolor, hand lettering, woodworking, creating permanent things that have a lasting place in our home and in our lives. My tastes are shifting to different color palettes, patterns, textures, lighting. It’s kind of all over the place but it’s also really fun to be exploring some of these new ideas and new preferences.
All of this is to say, I’m thinking on ways to bring all of this new exploration here to Lovely Indeed. It won’t be all at once or all of a sudden, but things are brewing. And truthfully, it’s just exciting to be excited again. To not just be so tired that I’m just cranking out days. I have a larger post coming about the future of Lovely Indeed and some other thoughts that have been on my mind. But for today, I just wanted to put this out there. And if you’re in a rut too, whatever kind, be good to yourself until you’re out the other side. xoxo